I'm Alive!

I haven't been online in weeks, probably the longest time since we first moved in here and didn't have a computer yet. If you know me, you know how unlike me is it lol. I've been really sick, to the point where I was too dizzy to stand up long enough to take a shower. It was pretty bad. The house was WRECKED. I've been starting to feel better in the past week, but I've been using the energy on Kaylee and keeping the house clean. I have emails to check, blogs to catch up on, and friends to catch up with, but I'm still feeling crappy. The fatigue is getting better but the nausea is actually getting worse. I've read that's normal for 10 weeks and I should start to feel better when I hit the second trimester. I've been having some really frustrating insurance problems, so I haven't been to the doctor yet. Right when I found out I was pregnant, I got something in the mail saying I need to renew my insurance. -_- Talk about bad timing. I got the paperwork in and everything and now I'm just waiting for it to reactivate. It should be any day now, and it better happen before May 17, which is when my midwife appointment is. I swear I will have a cow if they don't process it by then. Its supposed to take 30 days max and pregnant women are supposed to have priority. I talked to the midwife and she said 11 and a half weeks is fine for a first appointment, but I'm still freaking out. I just feel so emotionally torn, like I can't get attached to the baby until I know its alive and well in there. After 2 miscarriages, I'm just beginning to feel like all the suffering isn't worth it, and I'll never actually have another baby. I want to be in happy pappy prego mode already. Hopefully, in a few weeks, I will be!!

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Barrett Family said…
So glad to know you are doing as well as possible! Sending prayers and strength your way...

xo,
Allison
Brenda said…
Feel better soon sweetie. Blessings being sent your way.
Cathenia McNitt said…
I'm right with you! I'm about 8 1/2 weeks preggers and I have been feeling terrible! I hope the 10 weeks thing is right because..ugh.
Good luck with everything! I hope you start feeling better!
Theresa said…
Welcome back! I hope you get your insurance sorted out. How frustrating! That kind of stress could lead to health issues of it's own!

With my first born I was young and stupid and didn't go to the doctor until I was almost 6 months along. I was deathly sick the entire time and was even throwing up while delivering her. Can you imagine? She was perfectly healthy, so let's put a positive spin on your sickness and say the sicker you are, the healthier the baby :)

Hang in there!
Renee said…
How on earth did i miss the fact that your pregnant!!?? Congratulations!!! I imagine how worried your feeling is completely natural!! I'v not suffered a miscarriage and i still panic about it!! Will be praying for ya, and for a good peace of mind and midwife visit!! Hope the nausea passes soon!!

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