Vent and Photo Dump :)

So I think I'm starting to feel better... I still don't have much energy, but I can get up for at least a few hours a day. I'm really tired but no longer dizzy and weak. Sitting at the computer is fine now. Still super nauseous. :( I'm clinging to the hope that the nausea is supposed to get better by 13 weeks, which is in 2 weeks. I still have to wait another week and a half until my doctor appointment. I'm probably going to be having a panic attack the whole time. If we don't hear a heartbeat, I will probably cry, and if we do, I'll still probably cry. I start crying just thinking about it. I'm just a wreck, I want to know one way or the other. The worrying started when I took the home test 6 weeks ago. I won't have that moment of excitement, that "Oh my gosh, I'm Pregnant!" until I hear the heartbeat, until they tell me there's a living baby in there. I honestly can't believe I've survived this long without having a complete breakdown, though I THOUGHT I'd be having a doctor appointment before now, only to have to cancel it because my insurance was canceled and needed renewal. Talk about bad timing, I'm still so annoyed about that. I'm still waiting for the insurance to inform me that everything is good and its active again. We've decided that regardless, we're going to the May 17 appointment, if we have to pay for it out of pocket. I feel like calling the insurance place and yelling at them for making a pregnant person wait this long for a checkup, not to mention someone who's a nervous wreck because of 2 previous miscarriages. But of course, I won't, because I'm polite. >=/

Anyway, I've been hoarding pictures for a while now. ^^;

I have to get her to stop picking the flowers.

Azaleas.

Some sort of weed? But still pretty. :)

Our rose bush makes the entire yard smell nice.

Nutella mouth.

Rawr!

The tattoo I want next. (But redrawn so it actually looks good!)

Hurricane Kaylee has struck once again.

She inherited the sleeping in funny positions thing from my brother lol.

One of her luvvies, Henry.

<333

The way her hair curls is so cute!

Trying on hats in Target lol.

She looks like an old lady in a little girl's body hahah.

Giant cookie!

Snuggles. :)

I love Bucky Balls. xD

Cutie!

Just be glad pictures are silent. :P

10 comments :

Brenda said...

Great pictures sweetie! I know you're feeling horrible and anxious but do try and think positive thoughts. It's not good for the baby either if you are worrying so much and causing undo stress. My thoughts are with you and sending you strength to help you through. :)

Sü Smith said...

I agree on the "think positive"! I understand how one would worry though. Hope you get through the sick part relatively soon. I found that B6 helped my nausea when I was pregnant. There was one other thing too, but I forget what it is offhand now.

Sweet pics, thanks for sharing! :) ::hugs::

Carole said...

Just keep on keeping on. Thinking of you. Lovely pictures

Renee said...

Oh you poor thing! Have you thought of getting one of those dopplers that you can use at home?? I dont know how early they can detect a heart beat, but it could be worth looking into? Doesnt morning sickness suck!!

Theresa said...

I'm not even pregnant, but cry when I hear a baby heart beat on the machines too! Oh, and forget about ultrasounds. I cry at those every time lol.

Just try to relax and think positive happy thoughts. I'm thinking them for you too :)

Love the pictures! Did she share any of that big cookie?

Lucy McCracken said...

I really love your adorable photos. I hope you feel better soon. Hang in there... :)

Tiffany said...

Mmm, Nutella! One of my favorites!

I hope you start feeling better soon! And hearing that steady heartbeat is so soothing- I understand your anxiety until that day.

The Pepperrific Life said...

Pictures do paint a thousand words, don't they? :)

That stage of pregnancy is simply the worst. You'll get over it :) Take care...

Clairejustine said...

Great pictures,looks like someones had something yummy to eat,I love nutella too,that cookie looks great yum yum:)

Clairejustine said...

Great pictures,looks like someones had something yummy to eat,I love nutella too,that cookie looks great yum yum:)