Thankful Thursday

I didn't really feel like writing a thankful post tonight. But then I realized it might be the most important to write one when I am feeling the least thankful, if that makes sense.

Kaylee is being so challenging lately. She is the most stubborn person I've ever met; she even rivals me. Bedtime is the worst. She sometimes stays up until early morning! Tonight at bedtime, I lost my temper, then she FINALLY laid down. After a little bit, I felt bad, so I went in and hugged her, and she said, "Are you still mad at me?" I told her no, and that I loved her, and she fell straight asleep. Talk about mommy guilt.

I've been sitting here feeling like a terrible mom for a while now, planning on skipping Thankful Thursday. But then I realized, you know what, I AM thankful. Even though parenting is a challenging, insane, emotional roller coaster sometimes... I am so thankful to be a mom. I'm thankful that every day is a new chance for me to improve as a parent and as a person. I'm thankful that I have a patient, supportive husband so I don't have to muddle through this parenting thing alone.

And most of all, I'm extremely thankful that of all the challenges we've had with Kaylee lately, she doesn't ever take out her anger on the baby. She absolutely adores Brynna. The first thing she does in the morning is kiss her, and the same goes for when she gets home from school. Seeing their bond makes everything more than worth it.





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8 comments :

Sylvia said...

Oh dear, you are not alone. I have been right where you are many times. It's not unusual for sleep deprived moms to lose their tempers and then feel guilty for a while. Don't be too hard on yourself. It happens to all moms sooner or later!

Janine Huldie said...

Trust me you aren't alone and last night I was up half the night with a sick 3 year old. so, believe me this morningI am running on fumes and thankful is not in the vocabulary today, but just know you really aren't alone Camille. Thinking of you!!

onlythemanager said...

You are so right...expressing gratitude when you least feel like it can lead to amazing insights and peace.

Sophia Season said...

I didn't really feel like writing my post today either, but I buckled down and got it done. I felt so much better once I was pecking at my keyboard. I have been where you are with my children so I understand. Don't beat yourself up too bad. {{{HUGS}}}

Sophia
twentyfiveseasons.com

Kristina said...

Good for you for finding something to be thankful for when it wasn't so easy. :)

Marie Moody said...

Kinda know what you mean here too, and I probably shouldn't have wrote mine either so I just said what was on my mind girlfriend. What can I say. So, actually I'm here to see if you posted for Friday yet, and I was going to join your band of merry uh... bloggers? Have a great weekend.

Judy Haughton-James said...

Kaylee is an adorable little girl. Even as an adult I am stubborn at times!LOL Take care Camille.

Catriona @ Precious Impressions said...

Beautifully written Camille. Life has it's challenging moments but there is always something to be thankful for. I'm not a mommy yet, so I have no idea what it must be like to experience mommy guilt, but try not to be too hard on yourself. From what I've seen on your blog your kids are healthy, well looked after and loved and you are doing a great job!
Take care
xx