This month last year, I heard Brynna's heartbeat for the first time. It was a huge relief, something I had been feverishly praying for. Yet even after I heard it, I was still crazy with worry. I had 2 miscarriages before my pregnancy with her and I was so afraid I would lose her too. Now she is here, a healthy and happy 5 month old! That feeling of terrible fear mixed with desperate hope has now changed into a feeling of pure love and gratitude. I'm so thankful for this sweet baby!!
As you can see, Brynna loves to play with (and eat) her feet. :) She's generally a happy girl. She's always been a pretty reserved baby, but this month she is smiling more, and she even laughed out loud a few times. She is becoming a little more vocal, cooing and making sounds. She still hardly ever cries, but she has developed a whine this month which she uses when we make her unhappy. For example, if I take away something and give her a baby toy, she whines because she wants the object she was playing with back. She is always whining for food, and she will grab it and eat it in the blink of an eye if you're not careful!
She can sit up by herself but is still pretty wobbly. She can roll both ways, when she wants to. I remember when Kaylee was this age, she was starting to crawl, but Brynna isn't really interested in becoming mobile. She is usually content to just sit and play with a toy. I usually pick her up because I want to play with her, not because she is getting fussy. She is a very chill baby. :)
Generally, if she starts to cry, and doesn't need a diaper change, this means she's tired. She's getting a bit picky with going to sleep, she wants to nurse in my bed then be put in her baby bed. When we are out and can't do that routine, she fusses for a bit before giving in and going to sleep. She still naps haphazardly during the day, but she's great about going to bed at around 8pm and sleeping until about 8am. She usually wakes up to nurse about 3 times in the night, although last night she actually only woke up once, at 4am. :)
This month, we have still been breastfeeding. She is doing great and gaining weight like she's supposed to. At her last check up a week ago, she was a few ounces away from 16 pounds (I can't remember the exact number). We've given her solids this month, just because she starts whining like crazy when we eat in front of her. She's had a few different fruits and veggies in baby food form, and a whole banana, which she ate half of all by herself. She's LOVED everything she's tried except avocado which she didn't seem to like but still ate, hahah. I've decided to ditch the baby food and do baby-led weaning from now on. Oh and she also had a bottle of formula once when Kaylee really needed my attention, but she only finished an ounce or so. She held it and drank it by herself, which we thought was pretty neat. :)
Other than that, it's just been a really fun month. I absolutely love this stage! Don't get me wrong, I love Kaylee just as much as Brynna, obviously!! I love many things about her being 4; she is such an amazing little kid. But she is so independent and sometimes I really miss her being a sweet, snuggly baby. I'm definitely appreciating Brynn right now, because before I know it she's going to be running around and getting into all kinds of mischief. That being said, I also can't wait to see her grow up. Yeah, motherhood is just full of crazy emotions and contradictory feelings! But I wouldn't trade it for the world. :)